dont feel good.... its just so depressing 2 be waiting for something 2 happen because you think everything will be great after it does.... and then when it finally happens.... its still as horrible as before... but even more so... because you have nothing 2 hope and wish on....

eric is gone forever... i guess I give up... unless something incredible happens... i think we have lost him... i give up...

my mom thinks i am gonna go insane or something cuz i cried all last night... im just depressed...

8 days til sUmMeR '05!!!

<3 Jaymee